Hello.. I seem to have lost a lot of confidence riding horses. I started ridng about 7 years ago, I have backed horses and ridden race horses I could walk, trot, canter, gallop and jump 3ft-ish. I haven't really done much riding in the last year except a few of the older broodmares who are all quite sensible.
Anyway my grandfather has just bought my first horse she's a 15.3hh irish draught with a little bit of thoroughbred or something lighter in her, she hasn't really been ridden in the last 2 years and I've had her for about 16 days. I was riding her in the school today and I can walk and trot on her quite happily but the other day I fell off her in canter (it was completely my fault I had my reins too short and she wanted to go home so after ditching me she did) so now I'm not very comfortable cantering her and everytime she does I pull her up again so how can I get my confidence back?
I would also like to add that I lean forwards and push my hands into her neck whenever she goes into canter and I know it's a bad habit but one of the horses I used to ride would go into full blown gallop toward fences and stop at the last minute to get me off so that's the way I tried to stay on. Also the school was mostly flooded and it's sand so she was slipping a bit, was my instructor right to make me canter on this surface?
I apologise it's so long and if there are any mistakes or it doesn't make sense :/