A couple months ago my new horse reared and fell on me causing a rather impressive amount of damage and a lengthy hospital stay. I realized he was way too much horse for me so I sold him. I am healed to the point I can ride again and I am somewhat ashamed to admit I am having severe confidence issues.
We have another horse here (my husband bought one the same time I did, realized he wanted nothing more to do with horses after his horse bucked him off and gave him to me). This horse I would really like to keep, he is 6 yrs old and although he was sold to us as an experienced trail horse I would say he is green broke. I have been working with him for about an hour and a half every day, ground work and just tacking him up and going for walks with him. He has perfect ground manners and is always willing and very focused on what I am trying to communicate to him. I have gotten on him a couple times and we went on a short ride and he did ok.
I thought I was handling the nervousness and fear I felt ok but the other day I tacked him up and we started on a ride and he was nervous and started jigging along wanting to go faster, I got more scared and tried to slow him down that made him more nervous to the point where he started acting like he was going to buck and doing mini rears. I got so scared I panicked and got off and walked him home. I thought I had put my accident behind me but the minute he started actiing like that it all rushed back.
I have kind of mentioned that maybe lessons on my horse (or with a trainers horse) would help but my horse friends think that is a very silly idea as I have had horses and have been riding for about 45 of my 50 years. I intend to send my horse for some professional triaining in the spring as I don't ride in the winter but I would like to enjoy a few quiet trail rides in the meantiime and figure out how to handle this ridiculous fear I seem to have developed. If I can find a trainer to work with me and the horse I would probably only be able to take one lesson a week due to my work schedual and I would need to trailer him to the traiiners location.
What do you guys think? Should I try and find a trainer to work with me and my horse? Or should I just wait until spring and then send him for profesional training? Or do you have any other ideas? How can I get over this silly fear issue? I have never really been a very confident rider and never had any professional lessons but I always had fun and even managed to raise and train 2 very well behaved sane horses in my younger days.