So I'm in my first year of university and a month before I left, the horse I had been part-boarding for the past four years was sold to another girl who rides out of the same barn ... which just made the fact he got sold all the worse. Now when I go to the barn, I feel like I can't even go up and say hello to him because he's not my coach's anymore. The girl who bought him is a really good rider, and she's really nice, she just has wealthy parents who can buy a horse for her :S I can't help but be jealous. I was pretty devastated after that but I continued to ride other horses at the barn every now and then, but it was just never the same.
I recently had a break from school and went to the barn to ride a couple times for the first time in 6 months and it went awfully. I have completely lost my seat and I feel like I am right at the beginner beginner stage again ability wise. I also feel timid riding, and I have never felt like that before. This combined with seeing the horse I love and knowing I'm never going to be able to ride him again has just made my confidence level plummett.
Does anyone have any ways to build up my confidence again? I know the seat will come slowly with the rebuilding of muscle, but how can I get over this lack of confidence? I am so surprised with myself for feeling this way, but I am almost dreading going back there this summer once school is out!