I think most of us go through something like this. I was horse obsessed as a kid, then one day I woke up and that was it. I didnt want to ride anymore. I had no motivation to ride. I took a few years off through the rest of high school and then college. During that time I had opportunities to ride other people's horses, but never wanted to. I also felt empty during all those years as well. It wasn't until I was hired for a summer position at an eventing barn that I realized what was missing. Years later I'm still riding.
But now I have a different problem, work. I have a "real job" and I have NO time to ride, and when I do have a window of opportunity to ride, its either raining (thanks to the hurricane and remnants of another hurricane, no indoor) or I don't because now I have a house and that takes up my time. I go to visit my horse at lunch and I want to stay there and ride, but I have to go back to work. I haven't ridden in 2 weeks but I do miss it. So i'm sinking hundreds of dollars each month into a horse I don't ride, I have considered selling.
This is what happens when you have democrats in office