Join Date: May 2012
Location: Manitoba, Canada
I also have anxiety and depression, so I know a little of where you're coming from :) I have three horses - a riding horse and two miniatures. When I'm really anxious, I don't go for a ride, (I think I'm a bit like NBEventer's friend - I start imagining gopher holes breaking my horse's legs, every stumble becomes a fall, every twitch of her ears means she's going to buck) but I go play with my minis. They are fabulous therapy, and just brushing them, sitting in the pasture being nuzzled by them, quiets my racing mind.
My riding horse helps with my depression, my minis help with my anxiety, so whatever's going on, I'm covered. ;) I know that just because they help me doesn't mean it will be the same for you, but this is obviously something you're interested in (otherwise you wouldn't have taken those lessons in the first place) and I'd encourage you not to give up.
Maybe see if you can find a farm that either has some minis, or old retired horses, that you can just hang out with for a while - they'll get some attention, and it might help you feel more comfortable with horses in general if there's zero pressure to "get better" or "DO" something other than just be with them.