Ok so about 2 weeks ago now I think I fell off an ottb. I was at the yard where I work and I was going to get to ride Archie for the first time he's an ottb with us for dressage training. I have never ridden an ottb or even a tb for that matter so I had mixed feelings but was mostly excited to get the chance my instructor took me through the quirks of an ottb and made sure I was happy, which I was, so she put me on the lunge and I gave a reasonably long rein and just sat quietly not nagging or asking much of him and he was going great we started trotting and my instructor said he was going really well and I was riding him nicely. She asked me to go into sitting trot, which isn't my forte haha, but still I sat quietly and made sure not to grip but I think I might have squeezed him a bit by accident as he started to canter I grabbed hold of the front of the saddle and tried to go with him, which I did for a while but he started to get faster and faster and I tensed up which is when I fell off also the saddle slipped and ended up on his side which I think was another reason I lost my balance. I was ok just a grazed arm from the sand and a little shaken but I got back on after my instructor had walk trot and cantered him and he was fine. Now I hadn't fallen for just under 2 years so you could say I was due a confidence knock ;) but yeah I got back on him ad was a little nervous this time I was off the lunge because my instructor thought that could have been part of it. So I walked him round andhe was fine I kept my riding quiet and just led him round at a slow walk then my instructor asked me to trot which I was alittle unsure of but thought I was just being silly so I asked him to trot and he was fine until we got to one end of the school, where I had fallen last time, he started to go sideways like he was spooking and then all of the sudden we were at a very fast canter heading towards the fence I panicked and tensed up again but tried togo with him I didn't want to pull on the reins as I know this just makes them go faster but I froze up and just sat there we got to the fence and he stopped the sudden change in momentum threw me off and I hit the fence and landed on the floor at first I couldn't move or breathe or talk and started to panic but then my brain kicked in and I realised that I had just winded myself after I got my breath back I was ok. It turned out I'd sprained my wrist and also bruised my hip quite badly. So anyway the next week I was riding my pony a 14.2 10 year old new forest gelding called Rascal I've owned him for almost 2 years now. He always spooks when I change sides with my whip but this day I was being careless and forgot to prepare myself for it I had ne stirrup as was changing the length and changed my whip side he took off I froze up thinking 'oh god not again' and just bounced myself out the saddle I was absolutely fine just frustrated because normally I would not fall off that easily!! I got back on and had an amazing lesson but now whenever I think about riding him or anyone (especially the horses where I work even though they're all impecably behaved) fear just fills me and I'm so frustrated because I don't want to be a nervous rider I even thought about selling Rascal if I was just going to be scared to ride him now but I think it's too soon to say I wont get my confidence back.
Anyone who reads this novel well done! And thank you! I'm really only posting it to get support as I have no one to talk to about my confidence issues who have been through the same thing and any help would be greatly appreciated :)