Need a bit of help getting back in the saddle.
I own a 14 year old Thoroughbred Gelding named Ridge. Since I bought him we've had to move him from one farm to the next. Until now we hadn't found a suitable farm for our needs. Distance has always been an issue for us, but now that we've settled that, the only problem is my fear of getting back into the saddle.
I've been riding for years now and I've had no fears or issues. I ride western and I usually ride on ponies.
I'm not very tall and I have a bit of a fear of heights, so my 15.1hh Thoroughbred feels pretty high up. When I first got him he hadn't been rode in years, so it was groundwork, groundwork, groundwork every week.
Months past and I pulled out a saddle and started to ride. He did absolutely fantastic and I was thrilled with the outcome.
After our first ride I felt more connected to him and more understanding of his fears and short-comings.
But what I was not aware of was the crow-hopping.
I've been on a crow-hopping horse before and I handled it well! Just something inside me freaks out when my horse does it. The saddle isn't foreign to me and I feel absolutely horrible but I just can't bring my self to get back on.
Every time he crow-hopped or bucked I got right back on and rode.
I don't know why I'm so afraid. It's not like this is new to me, but I think I need some tips on how to settle myself down before I attempt to get back in the saddle. He's not a bad horse, it's me that is the problem.
I don't want to get on and scare myself even more.
I've also been reading posts on here and all over the Internet but I decided that making a post was the best idea.
No Heaven can Heaven be, if my Horse isn't there to welcome me.