I've been riding for years now and I've had no fears or issues. I ride western and I usually ride on ponies.
I'm not very tall and I have a bit of a fear of heights, so my 15.1hh Thoroughbred feels pretty high up. When I first got him he hadn't been rode in years, so it was groundwork, groundwork, groundwork every week.
Months past and I pulled out a saddle and started to ride. He did absolutely fantastic and I was thrilled with the outcome.
After our first ride I felt more connected to him and more understanding of his fears and short-comings.
But what I was not aware of was the crow-hopping.
I've been on a crow-hopping horse before and I handled it well! Just something inside me freaks out when my horse does it. The saddle isn't foreign to me and I feel absolutely horrible but I just can't bring my self to get back on.
Every time he crow-hopped or bucked I got right back on and rode.
I don't know why I'm so afraid. It's not like this is new to me, but I think I need some tips on how to settle myself down before I attempt to get back in the saddle. He's not a bad horse, it's me that is the problem.
I don't want to get on and scare myself even more.
I've also been reading posts on here and all over the Internet but I decided that making a post was the best idea.