It's Prelim Stormy
Drew - When I was a Working Student, I was fully motivated at first. I loved being at the barn for all those hours. At first, I was just cleaning stalls and turning 30 horses out and bringing 30 horses in and making grain and feed and all that hoohaw.
Eventually, after prooving myself to the BM, I was riding "Clients" horses for her - up to 5 a day. It was amazing at first, I learnt so much from each indavidual horse. How to change my seats, how to accomodate the horse, how to change my riding for each indavidual horse.
I was riding horses from the "Nutso" category, to the "Shove a firecracker up their arse just to get them to move" category. I even trained a Fjord how to jump and do basic level dressage for pete's sake *who is now doing exceptionally well in Pony Club*
But, I got burnt out. Not only having to spread myself for chores, but for the 5 horses, plus the 2 that I owned. Lessons, Comps - I was done.
I didn't want to do it anymore, but I kept going. Then a "Blessing" in disquise happened. My Husband lost his job and I had to leave my position and get a job to help support our family, and due to that, I had to move my horses.
We ened up Leasing out 1 horse, he went to a Pony Club home and is now at a fabulous barn, and I kept Nelson. It was a hard decision, but it had to be done. I had to decide which horse was more compatable for me and what horse would get me to my goals of getting back to Prelim.
We chose Nelson. And to be honest, going back to the basics *meaning 1 horse, getting rid of the stress* , I found my joy in Riding and Training again.
Now, I have only 1 horse to focus on in stead of 2 plus 5 others who weren't even my horses. I have goals, I have plans, I have moved to a new barn where I am a Boarder, not a Worker, so no more working 14 hours a day - and only have to focus on Nelson and I.
I made things simpler. Re-focused on what I want, short term goals and long term goals. Taking 1 step at a time.