Why did you start riding? Why did you buy a horse? Why did you start taking lessons? What were you striving to learn during lessons, striving to achieve? Was there a time that your heart quicken just before the mount? Did you ever lose time while riding? Saw or rode a horse that, Gosh!, you would just absolutely love to own? Can you remember a day when the sun, breeze and your horse lined up to give you the sweetest moment?
You may not be burned out. Maybe, just maybe, you have lost the ‘moments’. It is what life is made of. There are a lot of in-betweens and then there are moments. That is why old people reminisce. Even the young always play the “ remember when game”. You see when you are always looking for a destination, a point of achievement, you lose moments. When moments are lost, ambition because tedious.
A world traveler once told of the a secrete for enjoying the vicissitudes of exploring new experiences. She said to sit quietly and close one eyes. Pretend you are back home, back in your old home, in your old room, in the old world. Strive to achieve that state of presence. Then open your eyes and be in the moment, then one will truly enjoy their new travel challenges.
Maybe you should go out to the barn. Sit quietly, image your are at an advanced age, your beautiful horses are now gone, the knees don’t blend so good, the back hurts, the kids need college money on and on. Now really believe it. Open your eyes and try with all your heart to be in that moment, after all it is only what truly exists. Capture the moment!
As you strive to capture once again that portion of your spirit that you may think you lost, maybe striving to capture the moments that birthed you to horses may lead you back to yourself.
You say that college is in the future. That means you have more years ahead of you then you have behind you. Possibilities are endless, roads wide and always branching off. Take it from one who has more years behind them than ahead and roads are now more narrow. It is ok to just sit and be with your horse. Good Luck.