not riding much but can't part with horse
I'm new to the forum, so I apologize if this is overly long. I got my mare 7 years ago, and she was rather young (3 yrs old) so it probably wasn't a smart idea on my part but we knew the trainer personally, so my parents and I figured all would be well and she didn't spook or anything when I rode her the first few times. After we brought her home, she became very easily spooked at little things (leaves, etc) and I fell off several times. Nothing major, no broken bones, just sprains and a mild concussion but over time, my confidence became very shaken and I rode less and less. Now, 7 years later, I'm in college and therefore not home most of the time. She's still very well taken care of my and my parents have grown attached to her but do not ride. When I am home for summer, I work full time and dance. As a result, she has become a very pampered pet really. Over the years, she has calmed a lot and has excellent ground manners, and I love just spending time with her. I miss riding, but I still have a confience issue when it comes to riding her. At the same time, I feel guiltly though for not riding her and plan to take some lessons with a trainer that will hopefully help us both, but I would have to wait until I graduate from college (which is another 3 years before I can afford that). I don't want to sell her either, because I am attached and it would be like loosing my own child. Is anybody else facing something similar or have any suggestions?