Regaining confidence in my horse
I know there are many, many posts regarding confidence, but I really wanted to share my current situation and see what others thought.
I have had one of my horses for 5 years, he took me to my first show, has moved to many barns with me, and he was more or less a horse that I was quite confident in. He was like any other horse, there are one or two things that could spook him, but he remained controllable and recovered quickly. He taught me a lot over the years. In the first 3-4 years, I rode consistently and he really didn't have an extended amount of time off.
last winter, I kept my horses at home instead of taking them to a barn, so he had 8-9 months off. In the summer, when we started back up with lessons and riding, we found that he was far more spooky than before, and would buck when spooked. I was thrown 3 times, and after a long discussion with my trainer about how to proceed, we switched to doing groundwork to help build his confidence and to see just where this problem is coming from.
Now, we are at a barn with an arena, he has come along way with groundwork, and I know logically that at this point I need to get back to riding and start getting him back to his old self. Though very confident on the ground, and quite confident riding other horses, I must admit to being a bit nervous on him particularly. Not because I worry of being bucked off, I'm more anxious about the moment when he spooks and I'm unprepared. kind of like when watching a scary movie, though you might not actually be scared of the monster, you're anxious about the upcoming moment that he jumps out at you. If that makes sense?
I'm sorry for the length of this post, but hopefully a few of you can relate or can give some advice as to how to deal with and overcome this confidence issue
" If the entire world was one big machine, I couldn't be an extra part. I had to be here for some reason." ~ Hugo Cabret