So back in my younger days I was fearless. When I was 12 I started jumping my horse in a western saddle because I saw another girl at my barn doing it and it looked fun. I didn't hesitate to take riding lessons to learn to jump and when my horse and I started jumping 4ft and over I didn't even bat an eye.
After I could drive I went to the barn (back when there was no cell phones and the barn had no phone) and rode by myself training jumping ect...
Now that I am older (almost 33) I am the biggest freaking chicken! I won't ride unless my husband is here in case I fall off or something happens. Of course one of my instructors in nursing school told me a story about a lady here in town who was going to ride her horse. No one was home and her horse was acting wonky but she got on any way. He took off with her and threw her into a fence where she landed in a fire ant bed. She was paralized from the neck down and was there for 2 hours before someone came home and found her. So now I am really freaked out.
I waste so much riding time because I won't ride without someone present. I have even tried calling my husband before and after, telling him I am only riding for xx time and start calling if I don't answer but it doesn't calm my fears. I can't carry my phone with me (nowhere to put it ) I feel like I am being irrational. Am I??
Do any of you have this fear? Do I just need to get over it??? Any ideas for me? We keep our horses at home so it isn't like we have a big barn with lots of people. I am also not as confident in the saddle which doesn't help (I am working on it and hopefully starting lessons soon)