So, yeah, when we moved to a more rural setting, I was able to take lessons at a local barn. Hooray! That was for about 3-4 years. I guess I just felt like I wasn't progressing nearly enough there, I was pretty shy as a kid/teenager and still am, so I just kind of did whatever the instructor wanted that day, I never felt like I had a choice of direction in what I'd like to do, but the other kids were more like "I want to do that" and vocal about stuff. And maybe that shyness made her think I was afraid or something, so she always took it painfully slowly with me. But I wasn't afraid, just socially awkward! :U Lolz. So yeah. Maybe I was just a dumb, headstrong kid. But I stopped riding there, thinking I'd be able to find another place shortly. Well, school picked up, a couple years went by, and before I knew it, university was staring me in the face, so there was no point going back for a short while just to be torn away from it. No horses at school. Hardly any animals will go near my awful school in that smoggy city. But FINALLY I am graduating at the end of this semester, so my boyfriend and I started taking lessons together at his house! I'll be moving here in a few months and will finally just be able to ride. Ugh, I've been DYING to get back to riding since I stopped, watching horse videos, reading forums such as these, having dreams about riding. I rode like...twice with my friend at her house a couple years ago, but there was no one really critiquing, so I had no idea how I was doing.
Seems I've forgotten nearly everything. :roll: I mean like, how pathetic. I was like, is the instructor even going to BELIEVE I've ridden before? Okay, perhaps it wasn't quite so bad as all that. But when I stopped riding years ago I was jumping, just beginner stuff, but that was my task at hand. Now my task at hand is trot in a circle and try not to do a million things wrong. Didn't even hold the reins properly at first, heels won't stay down enough, and so on. I guess I thought, going by things I've read online, that I would just magically remember how to do stuff, muscle memory, blah blah blah. To some extent, true. But I still managed to do the simplest of things wrong. Couldn't even undo the straps on the bridle and get the halter on the horse after without help. Yes, I apparently am that dumb. But I used to tack up, untack, groom, and so on. Now I know nothing! Woo! You'd think after watching hundreds of Youtube videos something would have come back, but nope. Doesn't translate to real life. Oh, and I tossed the bridle on the ground after taking it off, because that's what I was taught at the old barn. "Just toss it to the side, put on the halter and pick up the bridle after." Figures, right? Hardly any of the good stuff comes back, but I manage to instinctively throw the freaking bridle on the ground. I didn't even have time to think about it, I just did it. I guess you're not supposed to do that because the lady was like "Or you could do that. *smile*" She's super nice, but I felt so embarrassed lolz. I'm naturally a "oh no oh no people are going to think I'm stupid" type of person, so I kind of trip myself up with nerves, I guess.
So yeah. That was a rant, sorry. D: But I don't know anyone who would even be able to come close to identifying with these worries. My boyfriend is starting riding for the first time ever, as rusty as I am right now I probably look good to him. (I ride English, but I pose this question to riders of all disciplines!) tl;dr, did anyone feel flat-out idiotic their first time back to riding and horses in general after years away? D;