Horse have been apart of my life for a very long time now, I can remember the day when I begged mum for riding lessons day after day untill she gave in, Or when I had my first ever lesson and stared wide eyed at the instructor when she wanted me to trot with no hands on the lunge for the first time.
I have grown up owning horse after horse, and I'm not going to lie I need a biiig break.
Most of you know I own a horse called Joe who I have basically rescued and am now re-training. I am 15 now and honestly I think about quitting horses every day, and was happy at the thought of not having horses around next year because I am studying 6TEE subjects.
The truth is now I don't want to lease Joe to a girl who will call him her own, I want to own him and ride him, but I don't know if I will be able to keep my heart in it and he deserves so much more.
I have been told if you balance everything out it should be easy, but I agist Joe and it is really hard to go to the stables and go riding after a hard day of school.
I told mum I don't want to ride next year, but now I'm not so sure. I guess I am just being selfish is all, but i'm really scared Im not making the right choice about my life and everything.