Originally Posted by cloud9
Have you tried hacking out with others. Sometimes if you have someone to chat too it can take your mind off your nerves.
Exactly like Cloud says. Go out with others. It will give you confidence and settle your horse. Once you have your confidence back then you can try hacking alone. In the school you are the one who feels safe because there is nowhere for your horse to go and if you fall off, you have a softer landing. When out hacking its different and you and your horse have a lot more freedom (within the confines of the hack). First time I got on my Clydesdale to 'try him out' he tanked off with me. I have never been so scared in my life so I know a l ittle of what you feel. I didn't even dare get him to trot on a hack just incase the same thing happened again. Going out with other people got my confidence back and I can now go on a hack alone but it took my a year!