This is mostly to rant and get stuff off my chest.
Well im riding a friends horse and he can be pushy but I try to be pushy back and I feel mean because he just acts like he's confused when I push him and try to make him mind. I can't get poles down and got really mad today for I guess no reason and I think overwhelmed myself going into practice today. Then I tryed to switch patterns and go to flags and barrels and still just felt mad at myself and told myself I couldnt do it. I can't sit the trot or feel right during the faster gaits, is this just me expecting to much out of myself. Have been doing alot of practicing and stuff latly am I pushing myself or just need to work slower? I really don't get why I can't get the trot down then I find a new problem in my riding where I move my legs to far forward and don't keep them under me for a better ride... I feel stressed and unhappy just can't sleep :/ someone help please