PS...there is one other reason why placing at this show was of significance for me. I didn't really want to bring it up at first, but changed my mind today, and you'll see why...
My uncle, who is the world's kindest, sweetest man, has been battling cancer for about a year now. Several weeks ago, he was told he had a couple days left, and he was put into Hospice for his final days. One thing that really perked him up was looking through a scrapbook I have started of Sandie and I at our shows, at the barn, etc.
Last time I went to see him, I was telling him about Grand River and how we fell off at our first show, but that we've been practicing and I've been learning how to stay back and stay on better, and we built a rock jump to practice on so we wouldn't repeat that at the next show! I told him I was going to go and try my best to get a blue ribbon in his honor, which he was very excited about. With the dressage training and jumping we've been doing, I thought I had a pretty good shot at it too.
We were all told by the doctors that he'd be gone before my show though, but I knew he'd have a front row seat there if that was the case. Well, he hung on...he hung on and although he couldn't be at my show because he was so sick, I was SO charged up and determined to bring home that ribbon and show him before he passed. So when I was first after dressage I was so excited...and when I fell I felt like I let him down.
I know he would never have seen it that way, he wasn't that type of person, he would have been proud of us no matter what, but I'm just explaining how I FELT about it.
Today he lost his battle with cancer. I know he's in a better place now, and I'm happy he isn't suffering anymore. So please, all I'm asking is for those of you who have been jumping to some conclusions about my motives and feelings to consider this. Sometimes you don't know the entire situation, and it really hurts to be made to feel like all you care about is a stupid ribbon, when what you really feel has so much more meaning behind it.
I know you guys didn't know that, so I'm not angry with you...I just wanted to share so that hopefully you can understand. Sorry if I've upset anyone