I tried to edit my last post but I ran out of time. Anyway, the gist of it was I am adopted (not anyones business) so I am well aware of what I have and am very greatful for my life. I finished 3 years of university with a 3.6gpa. I bought everything myself and I find riding and showing a sacrad thing. And the pressure from my parents make me not want to go this weekend. And I LOVE showing, nothing will stop me. Obvioulsy except for unrealistic expectations. I thought about what I said and I clearly did not get across what I wanted.
I will continue with what my coach says, she is AMAZING. I would follow her to the ends of the earth and back and I trust her 100%. My issue was is that I really -really got my hopes up when she said I could move up and then I felt like I went backwards, that's all.
And for showing, someone would kill for one lesson a week. I used to work at a barn 5days a week for 3 hours a day for 2 lessons. I got the real bargan lol! So I should be greatfull and I am- trust me.
In no way did I say I have evil worst parents in the world. I have the best parents in the world but them judging me and pushing me to do something when I'm obviously trying. I don't try to hit rails. So please stop with that. That's not right at all. I'm not 7 years old crying because I don't get what I want. I work my but off for everything I have. So just stop. Your reading too much into this. My parents are not against me..
And for me being my parents little precious... uh huh.. I bet you have a whole image in your head of what I look like and act like eh?
Anyway. As for going out for trail rides that's great idea. I may not actually be bored with the height, I may just be bored with the routine. I do the same thing 6 days a week every week. Same with the gym, I go to the gym 2 hours a day min. To keep fit for my riding and showing and trust me.. I get bored VERY fast. I never thought of it that way at all so thank you so much!!! That may just be what I need and I wasn't thinking outside the box.
So all and all. Thank you for those who didn't read too much into this and take things WAY out of context, and for the others who think I'm some kind of horrible rotten spoiled ungratefull snobby "my parents are evil and against me" type of little brat. Go away. No one has to post any more comments on this I've heard more than enought.
I just know next time.. have a problem. Don't POST IT ON HERE and talk to the people :)