Add me to sitting here crying! I cannot imagine what you are going through and went through on the days after...many hugs!!
It is hard to explain to people who don't have that bond with an animal that when we loose them, that our grief often drops us to our knees, when it is traumatic that is even worse. It is much like loosing a family member....
Thank you guys.. Like I have said before it's so nice to be able to share what happened with people who understand. I can't believe its been a year since the accident.Most of the time it seems like just yesterday. The more I work with Wolf the more I really think that someone somewhere(Apache) sent him to me so to speak. Yesterday I went out to the barn to work with him (and to be there for when the farrier came) I just stood there with my arms around his neck for a while...Being the sweetheart that he is,he stood quietly and turned his head to gently rub his muzzle on my back.. Makes me glad that I didn't give up riding
Wow I don't think I could live after what happened you truly are a fighter just like Apache I know sorry wont bring him back but I am so sorry for everything you went threw you had a once in a lifetime bond with Apache!
Cowgirl, I too have screamed those very same words, only it was when my 4 month old daughter died of Meningitis in 2003. You will survive, you will carry on, you will live again. But it will not be the same. There will be a deep pain in you that hovers over every moment of your life. There will be days of sunshine and laughter but the cloud of once was will hover in the distant horizon....I am speechless for your loss. My deepest heartfelt condolences go out to you.