“Ugh.” Well sort of.
“Are you afraid?” Kyle asked.
“Af...fraid?” I muttered, wishing I was dreaming.
He grabbed me by the arm and half pulled me into the bathroom. I could tell he was nervous. He fumbled with the box the test was in. The test was an EPT, it was twice as expensive as the one I had bought. Kyle quickly read the directions and took off the plastic end.
“I don't think the test would have the same affect if I peed on it...” He said. I noticed I hadn't moved from the spot he had pulled me to. I shifted. “Come on, you aren't going to make me pull down your pants are you?”
I shook my head and slowly pulled down my jeans. Now was the moment of truth. Sighing, I sat on the toilet. On one hand I was more frightened than I had ever been in my life...on the other I was glad that he would finally know the truth. I took the test from him and held it where it needed to go. It took awhile to summon up the courage to pee in front of him. When I finally did I handed him the test and walked out of the bathroom, past him and into my bedroom.
Glancing at the clock beside my bed I knew it wouldn't take long. The one I had taken in the bathroom at the grocery store only took a few breathless seconds. I heard him slam something and curse. I was so numb, not being able to cry or even think. I just sat there starring at the door.
He came in and sat down on my bed, in front of where I was standing. Tears fell down his face. He held the test tightly in his hand. I didn't know what to tell him. I could have said that it was my fault. I had stopped taking birth control when I found out he was seeing Isaac. I could have told him it was his fault because he was the first to ask for sex. All I could do was collapse into his arms and onto his chest. He hugged me for dear life and I felt safe enough to finally cry with him.
I woke up about an hour before Amora's alarm clock was supposed to go off. My head hurt from thinking so much. I knew I was just trying to find another reason for what was going on. Anything but what actually had me up all night. For the first half hour I just sat there and starred at her. Wondering if she knew something that I didn't know. I wanted so badly to get to the bottom of all of this. I was almost itching inside. I got up and took a real quick shower, hoping to clear my head. Leaning against the wall of the shower I heard Amora's alarm go off. I called out to her as I slowly got out of the shower. She didn't answer. I tried to raise my voice, which made my head hurt even more, as I pulled on my boxers. She didn't wake up. I walked into her room and shook her.
A little drop of saliva hit her pillow as she slowly woke up. She complained about he job as she wiped it away. Shaking my head I reminded her that she loved her job. I could tell by the smile that she didn't need the reminder. I walked over to her dresser to help her get ready. Sometimes I put her clothes away, so I knew where everything went. Yanking open the top drawer I started to grab a pair of pants. I heard her get up and I looked over my shoulder to see what she was doing. She looked like she had seen a premonition. She reached toward the drawer. For a split second I forgot my fingers were pretty much still in there. I yanked them up and moved away from her. What gives? What's in the drawer?
“I can do it. I want to wear something specific.” She exclaimed.
“What's wrong with you? You have a diary I don't know about?” I asked.
“Yes...” She laughed. “A dairy that could make millions in book stores.”
“Ohhh....K.” I said. “Well... Guess I'd better get off to work. Wouldn't want to miss the release of your diary.”
I walked into my room and shut the door behind me. I couldn't shake off the feeling that something was terribly wrong. Hearing her take a shower I tried to remember when her last period was. Not being able to remember scared me. I jumped when she yelled goodbye and walked out of the apartment. When she left I walked into the bedroom and pulled the top drawer open. Shuffling her socks around I found a little slip of paper with some guy named Austin's number on it. I was expecting to see a new diary or maybe even something saying she was pregnant. Maybe after how I acted toward the condoms she didn't want me to get upset about another guy.
After I got dressed and got into my car I started to feel confused. The mystery of her last period was riding on my mind. Usually when she was on her period she'd sleep in her room. She hated having sex while she was on her period. I was so caught up in Isaac that I forgot when she usually started.
As I turned onto the road where I worked I saw Walmart. I knew it was there but never really had the urge to go inside. Without a second thought I pulled in and walked inside. I walked straight to the pregnancy tests. Suddenly I felt out of place. I had never liked large chain stores. They just creeped me out. Grabbing a test, I quickly walked to the self check out. I don't even remember what type of test I grabbed. Although I did notice that it said 99% accurate on the front of the package. That must mean something, I thought.
I had only been working here for a little over a year. Unlike Amora I wasn't into college and after getting several certificates I decided that I would rather work than stay in school. I took a job at a major bank, in correspondence with several automobile dealerships, where I kept records and made those rude calls everyone hates, reminding them their payment is late. The only reason I liked the job was because it paid well and I was hoping I'd get a huge discount on a new car. I went through the beginning of the day totally zoned out. I had to work out a list of people to call. The list began with people who had a month before their cars were going to be processed for re-possession. It ended with people who were only a few days past their grace period. After an hour of starring blankly at the compute screen I decided to go home for lunch early. Looking at the clock I noticed I had fifteen minutes until I could clock out for lunch. I had to get out of here. Grabbing my jacket I walked out the back door and climbed into my car.
I drove home with only one thing on my mind. When I pulled into my spot I noticed that Amora's car was there and wondered what was going on. I ran up the steps. There were flowers on the porch from Isaac. At first I was going to just leave them there but thought better of it and took them in with me. Aamora was asleep on the couch snoring like a train. The sudden urge came through me to surprise her. I flung myself over the edge of the couch and sent her flying. Pure shock crossed her face. She turned a clear white and raced to the bathroom. She started wretching before I even made it to the doorway. My stomach turned as I watched her grabbing the edge of the toilet.