Well, we've survived a year together. Actually, we've made it 18 months. It's been crazy. We've had to fight adversity, people thinking we couldn't make it, people who constantly put us down, who laughed at us, who put us down.
You went from being the crazy, aggresive horse to the biggest goofball around. You went from running away in the pasture to running up to me in the pasture. You went from being the horse who had to be seperated because you were too aggressive. The horse who bucked, reared, took off, everything possible. Now, you're one of the most well-mannered horses.
We went to our first show this year. You were a champ and I was so proud of you. Even though you didn't place, you trailered perfectly, you were respectable in your stall and let strangers pet you, and you were a perfect gentleman in the warm-up arena while other horses came galloping past.
And now, you were lame for 5 weeks. The vet says you'll always have these hip problems, that you received them in your past home and that you'll never be perfect. You're limited now, no jumping or advanced dressage movements but at least your all right for the most part. I got back on you last week and it felt like I was back home where I belonged. You were amazing, acting like you hadn't just got off pasture rest.
You've been there for me, from the heart breaks to the triumphs. Everything was celebrated and mourned with you. You're always there to soak up every tear in your strong neck, you're always there when I need to ride away my worries, my fears. You show me my strength when you throw my weaknesses at me, make me face them head on. You're the horse who loves everyone, but its only me that you follow around the property without a lead, only me who you nicker to in the pasture.
I love you, Kota. And this is just the beginning of many years to come.
I think you know who <3
To see the wind'spower, the rain'scleansing, and the sun'sradiant life, one need only to look at the horse.
I know you have had a pretty crappy life before I got you, but I did too, so I guess we both understand whats it's like to constantly be thrown away like we don't matter.
You were born specifically to buck people off a a rodeo. And all because you were a hand to short they sold you to meat buyers. From there you were rescued and sold to another home where you were beaten. I don't know much else about the other seven places you bounced around. Finally when you came to me at ten years old, same age as I was. We bonded. You have no clue how much I talked about you after the very first day I met you. The first words I said were "I really like her, I really really like her."
My whole life I wished for just one friend, just one person to take away my sadness. No one at school ever like me, or ever talked to me. I was bullied all my life like I didn't matter. By the time I met you my dear Shadow, I had no friends and I was scared if everyone and trusted no one because all my life, like you was treated like I didn't matter.
You mean the world to me Shadow Puppet and I would really appreciate it if you would not buck my off in the mud or in puddles, or lets just say at all. I know you ahve it in you my dear horse, and I know it's hard to trust people, I know, but most importantly I know you trust me and I trust you too.
Soulmates, some would call us, and I think thats an appropriate term for our cicumstance. With luck we found eachother and who knows where we would have ended up if it weren't for eachother. I would probably be on the streets doing drugs, quit school, and drinking, like every other teenager in this tiny little town. You would have probably ended up somewhere where you were abused like in you past, or dead. But now that we have eachother we are loyal t eachother.
Still, to this day I have no friends and I am still the resource of everyones anger, but at least I have you to share my problems with and to confide in. It's nice to finally have that other half to me.
Four years later we are an inseperable team and we are the star team at the barn. No one beleived in us or you. They said that you would kill me. It came close once, but I never gave up in you, like you never gave up on me.
Shadow I will love you forever and I know you will love me too. Writting this letter makes me sooo excited to see you tommorrow even though I just saw you an hour ago.
You have no idea how much you mean to me and I have no idea how much I mean to you. And even though you don't whinny, or nicker at me everytime I come to see you. Thats okay because We know deep inside both our hearts are screaming with excitement to see eachother.
Love you more than the world My pretty Puppet.
Your owner, companion, best friend, and most importany soulmate
I'm sorry I had to be a stupid teenager and ruin what we had.
I promise I didn't see that truck until it was too late. My truck was done and I knew we were too, but I still fought.
That night, I walked 4 miles in the freezing cold to come feed you for the night. I walked into the barn and I heard your hearty knicker.
My heart broke as you greeted me. I knew that I was going to have to find a new home for you. My world came crashing down when you got in their trailer and drove away.
There will never be another like you, for as long as I live. What we had was special. I may have only had you for a short time, but I can say with all my heart that it was the best time of my life. I loved going to the barn to ride, play, work, and just hang out with you. You were my best friend, I could always count on you. I still count on you. You're my inspiration in life to be better. To try harder and achieve my goals.
Everyday, I remember how beautiful you were. With your silver coat, long, flowing mane, and those eyes.
Those eyes had me hypnotized. I saw a better world within your eyes. So clear and gentle. I felt as if you healed me from all my miseries. You still shake me to my core. We my never meet again, but I have faith. You were and always will be the horse that has my heart.
Keep it safe, will you? I'll stay strong. I promise.
Reann Posted via Mobile Device
I wish you were actually mine but no just a lease on a piece of paper.. You'd be amazing if I could ride you everyday and not have you silly horse eating more oats than your head can handle. Don't they see that we are the same in personality wise. Sort of the same bad situations that we come from. Don't they see that I'm the only one who rides you... They're just scared of you because you've got a mysterious height and your stubborn and you buck hard from time to time. Yet I can ride you across the pasture bareback with a halter. I trust you more than any person that I know.. well mainly cause you cant spread my problems to others. Everyone else 'round this town has their fancy show horses and fast rodeo horses and never seem to care... you know? Im just happy that im lucky enough to be able to ride you. You've taught me more than any other horse even derby the squirrel princess (thats a long story if all you HF members are wondering). I have a better seat from riding your bucks even though you can still sometimes throw me. I taught you to lope under saddle and have a successful trot.. not some weird combination of trot and gait.. (remember he's tennessee walker x arabian). I even have tried to jump you with my english saddle. Finding out that you dont like jumping with a western bridle, and breaking my wrist for it. I hope you know that I love you as a very special horse. Maybe someday you will actually be mine and that would be wonderful. Your always there when theres been the days from he!! and yeah your my favorite. Ive learned about trust and it takes one to give it, to have it. <3 rea