We all have those moments, and I have them way more often than I'd like to admit. Being a jumper, I used to use 'big' bits and I still have a pretty nasty looking thin twisted wire- I keep it to remind me of the rider I used to be, and the one I am now; I'm much prouder of the rider I am now. My point is that yea, it will be scary, and yea you're going to feel like you suck for a while. I sure as heck did! I felt like a beginner again, and that was quite a hit to my [inflated] ego. I caved a few times and put my big bits back in because I missed feeling like the rider I thought I was, then I'd feel guilty and shame myself back to the snaffle, and feel like crap twice over. I admit I got frustrated and too 'handsy' on more than one occasion. I'm still on the road to recovery, so to speak, and it isn't easy, but ****it, it's worth it.