LOL.... I understand because it sounds like your horse is not for you if you only have 35% of the time where you are not ready to launch her cartoon style. Saddles are great, but the only set on top of your horse.... get a better horse so you can poo poo the saddle and go bareback.
"Equine-facilitated therapy employs a form of biofeedback for practicing self-awareness, emotional management, and relationship skills that human role-playing exercises and discussion groups cannot begin to access." Linda Kohanov (The Tao of Equus)