Demon ... so sorry you're feeling so low! I, too, hate it when things begin to feel as though they are going wrong by the dozens, and it's always worse when fighting with DH, mainly because he's a WAY BETTER ARGUER than I am, And, he knows it, so gets all smug about everything like, "Just TRY to give me a comeback for THIS!"
Arggh. I do try to remember, though, that stuff like that happens for a reason...I KNOW it sounds trite, & I get so frustrated hearing that, but I also KNOW ITS TRUE! You hang on a bit longer, I promise, the tides will turn, and soon...I'll totally pray for ya. If you're cool with that??
I swear, nothing ever goes my way anymore. Am I too young for a midlife crisis???!! Because I'm starting to feel very midlife crisis-y....
Not at all. I've got my midlife crisis in the pasture. Bummer on your horse hunt. It will happen when the time is right.
Feeling pretty numb here. Losing Hondo has pretty well ripped my guts out. 31 years with the same horse makes a bond that's pretty hard to describe. So many of my happy childhood memories are intertwined with his. I can't stand being in the barn, I go out and do the have to's and get out of dodge. Feel a bit guilty for the rest of the bunch but they'll survive hanging out in the pasture and eating.
So sorry MHF, I lost my boy to cancer at the age of 29 a couple years ago. He'd been with me 27 of those years. I know how badly it hurts. Just give yourself the time to grieve, the others will be there when you are ready. Hugs.
Hello all - I am Cathy. I am 33 and live in Colorado. I am kid-less, not married and don't have a horse. So you undoubtedly wonder what I am Doing here? Well I had horses from age 3 until 16, then again from 18-21. Sadly time is very limited as I try to get my career up and running and I have to travel quite a lot so I have to wait to get a horse again.
However with that said, I am a horse lover and live on a 20 acre horse ranch as a renter, so I get to see horses daily :).
I do have a dog, who is now 11 1/2 years old, but fortunately looks and acts much younger. She is a Belgian Sheepdog and when she was younger I competed with her in agility, obedience and conformation. She is my heart dog!
It's been a roller coaster week for me and my family, last week my uncle was in the hospital for blood clots, he got to come home on Monday, then on tuesday one of my cats got hit by a car. Lets hope this weekend and beyond will be better for us.
First off, my boyfriend and I live together. He's been working for his mom running her vending machine business for the past several years since his dad passed away without pay. His mom can't/won't pay him, so he decided to get another job. He still runs the vending machine business, but now he also works full-time (35 hours a week) as a donation attendant at Goodwill (I helped him get the interview, as it is the same Goodwill I used to work at and I'm still friends with all the managers). He has been working there for three weeks and got his first paycheck last Friday. Up until he got this job, I'd been paying most of our utilities.
Ok, so when I got my taxes at the beginning of March, I paid our cell phone bill and electricity. They totaled about $400. We made the agreement that since I paid that cell phone bill (our first on our new plan together, so it included an additional $70 for activation fees) and the electric bill was ridiculously high, that he would take care of the next cell phone bill (which should be the normal amount) and the electric bill (which was supposed to be half what the one I paid was). Next month, we are going to go halves on all the bills to make it more fair.
So, I get home from my nine-hour day at work today and our power has been shut off due to non-payment. So, I call the electric company to see what the deal is (since we received no notices either by mail or on our fence), and they absolutely refuse to talk to me because I'm not on the account. They won't even tell me if it's an outage or if the power has been shut off. So, I text the info to my boyfriend at work and ask him to call them on his break to straighten it out and give me authorization to deal with the account. Then, because I really didn't want to hang out in a dark house with no electricity (can't even use my laptop because the battery won't hold a charge, so it has to be plugged in) by myself, I grabbed my boots and decided to go ride Aires.
Got to the barn and not only are there horses turned out in the round pen, they were working on the arena. So, I hung out for a while, just grooming Aires. During the hour or so I was at the barn, my brother called me twice and texted me three times. Why? Because he wants to use my phone to chat with guys on a dating site (his phone can't have Internet). He calls or texts me every night to come over to his house so he can use my phone (he thinks he's being clever by asking me over to "just hang out" since we haven't seen each other in so long, but as soon as I walk in the door, he wants my phone). I seriously feel like he's using me...and he's my older brother! I'm not a passive person by any stretch of the imagination, but when it comes to family, I'm a pushover. I also can't stand conflict. I can't tell my sister (she's older than me, but younger than my brother) because she'll just tell my brother to leave me alone, and I promised my brother I wouldn't tell her about the site he's using (this before I realized he was going to want me to come over every night). I definitely can't tell my parents (they are VERY religious and VERY judgmental). If I make excuses as to why I can't come over, my brother pouts and guilt-trips me. So, I don't know what to do about that.
So now I'm sitting in my (old, beat up, POS) car in front of my (dark, cold, electricity-less) house, charging my phone and waiting for my boyfriend to get home from work (in another hour and a half).
Sorry, guys. I just really needed to get that off my chest. I've had a stressful week at work (yay for having to do the boss's job because he isn't there!) and I haven't been sleeping much/at all most nights for the past couple of weeks. Posted via Mobile Device
Drafty, ((hugs)) sorry everything is going wrong! Just try and talk to your brother and tell him that you feel like your being used. I have lots of family and it usually works out better if we get mad fight and tell the truth. But we are family so we get over it. Hope you wake up tomorrow and have an awesome day! Posted via Mobile Device