I'm trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life today.
Minimum wage isn't cutting it, especially if my work is going to take $200 out of every paycheck (damaged a car at work and have to pay a $1000 deductible). I only bring home $500 after taxes and insurance, so now that's down to $300. So, that's $600 a month. Add up my bills (board, car insurance, court fees, gas in the Thunderbird) and that comes to about $500. Which leaves me $100 to help my boyfriend out with the utilities and our phones (which that $100 barely covers my half of the phone bill). Never mind my doctor's bills (insurance wasn't explained well to me and I thought I just had a deductible of $20-30...which I do, AFTER I meet my $7500 deductible
). Just from my appointment on Monday, I owe $90 (I have to pay 20% of any doctor's visits and the like). My ultrasound appointment on Wednesday is going to be another $100+. And I HAVE to get Aires' feet done soon, so I can start riding again. My boyfriend brings home about $550 a check (I make $7.80/hr and he makes $8.50/hr, but works slightly less hours). He desperately needs new tires on his truck, but because of the size that they are, they're a minimum $300 EACH. His mom (who he runs the vending machine business for) won't help him, even though the truck is still in her name (his dad bought the truck and when his dad died a few years ago, he left Robert the truck, free and clear...but somehow the title ended up in his mom's name and she won't relinquish it). Add to that the fact that his mom doesn't like me and is constantly asking him what I do with my money, and let's just say that she's out of the picture, as far as helping. My parents are having to support my brother who just got out of prison and they're losing some of their income as renters move out and such, and I can't/won't ask them for help.
This is the most stress I've had in a while (since Christmas, at least) and I've been stressing over it so badly that I've been literally throwing up all morning (while at work). I can't talk to my boyfriend about it because he'll just say "It'll work out."
Sorry, guys. Just freaking out a little (ok, a lot) and needed to vent it somewhere.
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