Please someone out there help me. I am totally lost as to what to do. I have a horse and I have had her for 18 years. I love her more than anything else in this world. When I went to college she went with me and when I moved back home to where I am from she again went with me. Three years ago she suffered a leg injury and can never be ridden again. The best specialists have seen her and at her age of 27 there isnít anything that can be done. She isnít in any pain but she does often favor that leg. She spends her days in a pasture and her nights in her stall. In order to afford her I was living at home with my family and really I still wasnít able to afford her. I was charging up my credit cards. A year ago I was offered a great position in a new company with a huge raise the only problem was it was several hours away in a different part of the state. I decided to take the job and leave her at the stable where she knew all the horses, people, and her vet and farrier knew of her special condition with her leg. I thought that it would be the best thing for her. Of course in leaving her behind all my costs have gone up. I worked at the barn before so my stall rent was free and I took care of her myself so I didnít have to pay anyone to do it for me. Moving has had me paying for full board and it has been killing me. I try to spend at least one weekend a month back home so I can love on her and bathe her and let her know how much she means to me. I end up sobbing every time I pull up to the barn and see her and I feel sharp pains in my chest every time I go. It would appear as though the extra money provided by the job really hasnít put any more money in my pocket. Her costs run me from $600-$700 a month and to compensate I stay in a friends extra bedroom for free with everything I own other then necessities in storage. I dream of one day owning a home with a little property so I can have a couple horses. That is all I have ever wanted in my life, to wake up and look out my bedroom window and see my horse grazing. I can think of nothing quite as beautiful as the sight of a horse. They truly are Godís greatest creation.
So a few months ago the original owners of my horse contacted me and informed me that their horse of 30 years had passed away and they had heard about my horse and that I wasnít around much. They have offered to take her and give her a good home. I went to meet them and they seem like really wonderful people. They really do, they are older than I would prefer but they have a three stall barn that is actually nicer than the barn she is in. There are 3 acres of grass pastures but no shade. They said they leave the stall door open so she could come in if she got hot. The husband would be home all the time as he is retired and the wife works part time. One problem I find is that she would be the only horse there and there arenít any others around. Horses are pack animals and they donít like to be alone, plus she has a boyfriend now. I know that sounds funny but she shares a pasture all day long with a 28 year old gelding. If they arenít in the pasture together they are nickering the whole time at each other. I am someone who preaches to others all the time about once you have an animal you should have it for life. For me they are like my children. I work with local rescue groups and help rescue dogs and cats all the time. I feel like a complete hypocrite that I could even think about giving up this horse I have had for essentially my whole life. I thought I would have her until her death. I promised her I would always take care of her and I am tormented every night by what to do. What kind of person would I be if I give her up to this couple? I want to have a home and I feel like my whole life will have passed before me before I will ever be able to obtain one. I am unable to buy furniture or go on vacation or participate more in the animal rescue group because I just donít have any money. Any fun things that I do try to do I charge on my credit card. Her vaccinations are behind right now because I just donít have an extra hundred dollars. What kind of selfish person am I that would even consider giving her away so that I could have a house, just some material possession? Isnít it more important in life to keep your promises and take care of you pets then to have a home and go on vacation? Growing up I always said I would live in a cardboard box before I would ever live without my horse. There were people I scolded for choosing to give up there horse to get married and have a family and look at what I am considering. What would they think of the girl who felt so deeply for her beliefs that she now may give her horse away? I tried to convince the owner of her boyfriend to move him to this new place as a possibility for the two of them but she said with no shade and no pond he would be to hot and he is a non sweater, so that wouldnít work. I told the couple I would call them on a Wednesday but it has been a month now and I still havenít been able to call. What a coward. Please someone tell me what to do? I have been on my knees praying about this and today I felt the need to put this to people who may understand.