Afraid to "ruin" horse
I am new to the forum. I've been reading the forum for a while but never posted. I have been riding for a couple years- lessons and bought my first horse last month. He is 19 years old. He is a Quarter Horse Gelding. He has had a career as a cutting/ reining/ barrel/ trail horse. He is a great teacher. He is super responsive to seat and legs and patient with me- so far.
I just find that I have been anticipating having a horse of my own so much and I am so happy to finally be here, but when I ride I am afraid of messing him up. Or doing something so wrong that I "ruin" him.
I have been told by my trainer and others at the stable I took/ take lessons that I will be fine and that I should just relax and enjoy him, but I can't help worrying that I will do something or gradually untrain him- if that makes any sense.
I was just wondering if anyone else has felt this way.