Awww, sweetie ... *Big Hugs* That sounds really rough. I have to admit though, I don't really know what it feels like, because my good friend and I share the responsibilities of Jubilee, so we can always talk about stuff like this. Is there any way you can move barns? I know that's a really big step and may not be possible. Does your barn have few boarders, or are they just really unfriendly? I agree with what Maureen said about a Horse Expo. Go to as many shows as you can too, just to watch. And you know what they always say, "To make a friend you have to be a friend." I know its cliched, but its actually true. If you see someone in need at your barn, be really friendly, help them, start a conversation. Try not to be afraid to put yourself out there. I know its hard, I can get very shy sometimes myself. But good luck hun and feel free to send over a PM if you need to.