Just had a pretty big fight with my mom. It ended with her hitting me and calling me an "ungrateful bitch."
I guess I am one, but it's because I'm constantly comparing myself to my friends. The way my parents see it is that they have done and are doing SOO much for me. But when I compare what I have/get from my parents compared to my friends it feels like nothing.
My parents have never watched me ride, not once.
They make me BUS to my horse (only reason I board at the stable I am at is for the bus... because they will only drive me on weekends)
They pitch in $200/month towards board otherwise I have to pay for everything else.
They won't teach me to drive because we can't "communicate" so I don't have my license, I'm 18 btw, and I can't take a drivers course @ school because I already have my beginners.
They won't let me go to the university I want to go to because we don't have the money (and yet they are buying a $20,000 trailer & going on trips to mexico!!! What the heck?!)
In general they don't support my passion. Infact if you want to get really deep into it, they haven't told me that they've loved me since I was like 8 or something. Although, I haven't said it either.. but that's because I feel like they don't love me back!
Now they think im UNGRATEFUL. And I guess I am... but am I reasonable? Do I have good reason to think otherwise?
I just compare myself to all of my friends who have there parents come to every single one of their lessons and drive them an hour out to their barn. And then my school friends that are going off to like Queens and Penn and I'm stuck here going to community college. I mean, I guessss I can understand why they don't want to spend that much money because I have horrible grades... but with my artistic ablility I can make it far at the animation school I want to go to in BC! They don't support my passion for art either!
Ugh I feel like such a stupid little girl writing this post. But I need to let it out and hear some reasonable opinions on this situation. I feel like I'm right, but deep down I know I must be wrong. I'm always wrong.