I have a huge anxiety about getting in the trailer with a horse. Even calm horses like my mare. I had a really big accident involving a normally calm horse pulling back and jumping ontop of me a year and a half ago and since then I've just been really, really nervous. I won't tie a horse in right away, I will shut the divider and then get out and crawl onto the window to tie them from the outside because I'm scared they'll pull back, hit the end of the tie, and panic.
We also had an accident where a horse pulled back, got severely hurt, and had to be put down at a barrel race. She was tied in and the owner got out, only the horse pulled back before she could get the divider shut. I won't go into details but I watched the whole thing and it freaked me out.
Being someone who works with difficult horses a lot of the time, I do my best to power through this. I can still get my horses in the trailer but I'm nervous the whole time and I feel really bad about it. Ever since these things happened I used to never be scared.
I dunno. Just a little voicing of my thoughts I guess o.o