not sure if this should be considered "horse memorials" but i need some help.
my horse Vegas lost his battle against cancer last year.
he was my best friend, my love, my life, my WORLD.
for a while, i thought i had kept my tears under control, but recently, i have been unbelievably upset. i have been thinking about him a LOT lately. i will just randomly start crying and i will have to lock myself in my room and just cry for a few hours. maybe scream into a pillow or two. this has been happening every day for awhile, and im getting tired of it. i wish i could just cowgirl up, swallow the lump, and move on like a normal person, but i just cant bring myself to do it.
all this may have to do with the fact that the last time i saw him was the day before his birthday. i slept in his stall right next to him all through the night and his body kept me warm. when i woke up, i was cold because, ...yeah. enough said.
God must have loved him so much, he brought him home early. I know he is doing so much better, pain-free, in the arms of the angels. i'm just waiting for the day i can see his face again.
PLEASE understand im not
looking for sympathy or any sappy condolences or anything like that. i just need help on how to control my thought and emotions about him.
please help. thank you so much.