So I thought I'd come on here and see if I could get some advice. A week ago I had a freak accident on my mare and broke both lower bones in my right leg. I've undergone surgery and am now sporting a titanium rod in my leg etc. I know I have a long recovery ahead of me, but the days are slowly getting better.
This isn't my problem. I understand only I can make the decision to get back in the saddle, but I'm hoping there are others out there that have been in my position before and can help shed some light.
I'm absolutely petrified to get back in the saddle... my accident is a nightmare to me and although it was not at the real fault of my mare, I feel sick just at the thought of riding again.
This is saddening to me. I do have major nerve problems but had been going SO well, infact, I had just ridden a Open Medium Dressage horse earlier that week and realised just how improved my riding was. I had come so far to overcome my nerves from falling off my gelding late last year and on my mare I felt so safe... like I say it wasn't something that could've been controlled, she really panicked and I couldn't get her back. Now I feel like I can't move on from it... everytime I think of my darling mare, I have flashes of what happened. I know it's early days and I have yet to see her (tomorrow thank god!) so I'm hoping that will change things for me. I never got to check that she was okay on account that I couldn't move and was taken away by ambulance.
All my friends are saying "don't worry won't be long till you're back up there" but tbh I don't know if I can. I'd like to be able to try but for now it leaves me feeling so sick. I'm not sure what I need to do.
Basically can anyone relate to this? If so, what helped you along? Did you spend a lot of time on the ground, getting associated with your horse again, remembering why you love this sport so much? Or did you just get on with it and get back up there and pray nothing went wrong? Something else?
I would dearly love to hear. I have 2 months of non weight bearing so I have a lot of recovery time ahead of me. But I just thought I'd write this up and see if anyone can help. I don't want to have to sell my two babies, but I don't think it'd be fair on them if I don't plan to ride again.
Thanks in advance.