Aghh, after having decided that I was happy with my herd, this has thrown just a huge great spanner in things. You know all those people who have horses they love, but maybe wrong for them, I'm probably one of them
I really really like the horses I have, and no way can I get yet another one, unless my lottery ticket comes up.
Soooo, here comes another list
1) Lessons, I am taking lessons on Ben, and will be starting with Emmy as soon as I can, and that helps. Ben is so green that progress is slow, Emmy knows a lot, but I don't know if she will calm down enough to show it. Maybe I need to juggle the time and money around to go have lessons on a school master to improve my confidence.
2) Training, I would love to send someone for more training, but who and for what? Ben is obviously staying English, and looking at his transitions to canter, which he always bucks his way through, I'm wondering if a better rider than me should ride that out of him. For Emmy it would be getting some hours and getting braver, but I'm so scared that the wrong person would set her back, rather than bring her forward.
3) Selling sounds so drastic, but should I look at my age, experience and limitations, and find something that just fits me now....AGHHH again. This isn't even necessarily about the whole reining idea, but life in general.
4) If I wanted to compete at reining, sometime in the future, I see a whole 'nother bunch of expenses, with trainers, practice areas etc, at home here I can't justify putting in an arena with suitable footing, and hauling out is such a pain, and could be a huge distance.
I shouldn't have gone you know, I am all unsettled now