I’ll tryyy and make this as short as possible as to not discourage readers, and get to the point...
For those who haven't read my other thread, my barn's arena got caught in a fire. This results in me and all the other students of having to go to this other barn to use their arena and horses, but to get taught by my trainer. <-- (just to make sure everybody see's that) this will last a while, as the reconstruction of the arena and restaurant will probably take all summer. (The arena was connected to a restaurant, it was pretty neat).
Despite the inconvenience of it all, I'm actually excited because it permits me to see another barn. I believe in providence, and think this has happened for a reason. Firstly, I've been considering eventually leaving my current stable for one that is more organized and show oriented. I don't know when, but it will hopefully be clear when the time has come. However, I might not even have the money or time to show due to me going into a tough Cegep program next year, but I'd like it if I had a trainer that could concentrate on slowly getting me ready.
To put it in a tiny nut shell, I am not unhappy at my barn (more like a medley of happiness, mixed with a great lack of satisfaction), but I feel like I am getting miles in the saddle without actually going anywhere. In order words, I am learning, because one learns (or brushes up on something) each time one mounts a horse, but I am not actually learning things, as in skills (jumping, changing leads, etc...). The only thing I feel progressing is my balance, but god knows if that hasn’t deteriorated since my last lesson was 5 weeks ago! (Mainly the fire, and then school, are the cause of that.)
Issue is, my barn has pros that could permit me to really advance, but there is ALWAYS something in the way. Either it’s to do with my trainer, or the tack (when I ride I manage to use decent fitting tack, but not always when there are more than 3 students in the lesson) This sometimes puts me off balance and the horse isn’t in his top mood/shape, making things harder than they should), or... in this case, the arena is partly burnt and who knows when they will be able to give lessons in there again. The owner is supposed to fix the outdoor arena (has been saying that for 3 summers now) but promises a lot of things and doesn’t do half of them. My trainer is really the one who takes care of the whole barn, but there is a limit of what she can do as the manager. Hopefully the outdoor arena will finally be fixed, and this summer’s weather will be fine.
Anyhow, I guess you could say I am just tired of seeing people advance amazingly and start to do so many fun things, when I have been riding for so long and am still doing the same usually (beginner) stuff. (And it's not because I am not ready.) For certain things, yes I still need more experience, but for other stuff it's QUITE the time.
I love riding, but I sometimes get scared of a feeling that tells me I am spending soo much money and am not really going anywhere, and maybe I should stop and take it up when I am an adult. I don’t want to stop... I know I’ll deeply regret it later.
At the other barn, the lessons are less expensive (don’t know if they have free rides though... as in you pay to ride but it's not a lesson). They aren't a huge barn, but have a healthy and lively amount of students of all ages, good school horses, better facilities, more organized, and they do some shows. I don’t know if I’d be happier there, but I guess I’ll see when I have my lessons at their place. I’ll try and come earlier to catch some of the lessons with the trainers that are there.
Thanks for reading.