Its not easy.
Feel like my arm has been removed. Dad's mare has gone to be a pasture puff in the most amazing place due to continual lameness from her navicular.
My boy is with my trainer, and also has an amazing life home.
But I find although I have more money, I am having no fun. Feels like a big part of me is gone and I need to find something to give that love to.
Finally put his saddle up for sale so I can get my driving started. Have someone to look at it tonight and still feel sick and that he is going to come here any minute.
How has everyone else coped? I am trying to persuade my dad looking at something suitable for us both would be a good idea early next year.. but it may be knee jerk reaction to having no horse. How I wish Dubai had been bigger and older so he could carry my dad too :(