It feels as if this heartbreak is never going to heal. I miss my boy more and more every day.
I promise it will get better. Not today, and probably not for many months to come, but it will. I swear this on my soul.
The memories of his death will fade and be replaced with the happier times. Eventually you'll be able to look back on your life with him and smile. Your spoken recollections of him will stop being a torment, and will become a comfort and give you laughter.
It's also okay to get another horse. It's not a betrayal, it's a continuance of your love for these animals. Your boy wouldn't want you to mourn him forever, and he'd want you to love and enjoy another companion.
When the time is right you'll find another horse who needs you, and who calls to your heart.
You've just lost your special horse; give yourself time to grieve. Don't let anyone tell you he was 'just a horse' and you should be over his death within a certain time period. Grief takes as long as it takes.
You'll never not miss him, but you will be able to look back on your memories with love and laughter instead of tears.
You've just joined a very large club, and we know how you feel. If you need to talk, we're here for you.