Two weeks ago, I fell off. Okay, he crow hopped several times, and then bucked, and I came off. My own fault. The next lesson she told me she'd never seen him do that with a person on him, and attributed it to his lazy demeanor, and me using the dressage whip incorrectly.
Last lesson, no bucking, every thing fine.
In all my lessons I've ONLY been walking or trotting. A little posting and two point. Working on my position. (Which I developed poorly riding western on my own)
Anyways, after the last lesson on Saturday, she said if I wanted to go hacking during this week, to give her a call.
I did, today. First she told me "no something came up..and then she said..alright I'll tell you the truth." She told me that her horse had "a bump on his back and a sore back Sunday morning". Which apparently is attributed to me, and "weight not being distributed properly" and how we need to be more diligent in making sure I have correct position (im on the fleshy part of my butt too much and not my seat bones) before doing anything else. She wasn't snide about it, but just matter of fact that I did this to him. Then told me he would "be fine by saturday" for my lesson. She said if I wanted to go hacking, we could call her friend and see if I could go hacking on her friend's warmblood next week (I'm sorry..if I'm such an equine danger..why put on her friend's?)
I felt awful. Like really, wanna cry kick myself awful. Me, falling off and crashing into things--no biggie. A horse getting hurt BECAUSE OF ME-big deal in my book. Enormous deal.
But now im really starting to wonder about what she said....Im 130 pounds. And I've never given a horse a sore back before. The lesson was an hour long, most of it just walking. Posting I never slam back down, and am pretty good at getting the right diagonal.
Additionally..she's a "professional" and I ride in her tack, and she checks it all after its tacked up. Her saddle,etc. So I know if she's as great as she says, he doesnt have ill fitting saddle or pads on him.
Im just wondering..am I getting blamed for something I didn't do to him? I feel awful right now. This is the ONE THING I've discovered in life that I actually LIKE doing, and it gets me through my entire week. And suddenly, I really don't feel like going back for my lesson on saturday.