well you guys I sold duchess today. I wasnt even planning on it it really, this lady called me and asked if she could come take a look at her, so I was just like ya (you wont buy her) but sure. So she comes up to my house and the moment I started talking to her I just had this feeling like she was the one. So I take her to see duchess and right off the bat she likes her, she takes her for a ride duchess does great with her, of coarse doesnt pick up her left lead but I told (linda) that she needed finish work. So she gets done riding her and we put her back. She tells me she has one more to look at, so im thinking o that's the "code", she tells me she will call me after she gets done looking at this other horse. So I wasnt expecting a call, but couple hours later she calls me and says I really like duchess. Linda had looked at 6 other horses that day, and came back to duchess, right then I just new it was meant to be, I mean 6 others and still comes back to a green horse. So she comes back up gives me the money. I had been crying on and off almost all day, I really truly deeply loved duchess. And it took alot of me to not cry infront of linda (i hate crying infront of people) but I managed and she new that it hurt me to sell duchess, she told me that she had just sold one of her horses and she almost cried while she loaded her horse into the trailer. But this home will be perfect for duchess, she will have many huge pastures to run in, lots of friends and 1500 cows to chase. She will get loved and petted and messed with everyday. It still hurts, and it will be really tuff tomarow morning when I get up adn look at and see she is not there, im still cry (am crying) but there not tears of regret just saddness. I know I will get over it, it is just going to be a ruff few days. But she is going to an awsome home and that was the most important thing for me. Linda had also bought a 6 month old colt that day and he was in the trailer to and as soon as duchess hoped in the trailer she started playing with the colt, then she turned and looked at me (i know this is going to sound wierd) but she had this completly happy look on her face and almost gave me this thank you nod. And off she went
this is still really hard for me but I know I did the right thing. Now I can save my money up and buy my dream horse so I don't have to go threw this again. I probably wont get another horse till next year but im going to keep looking just in case. Sorry for the book guys.