So for a year I've had a horse that just hasn't been the right match for me...before him I would ride all the time and was very brave with horses, but with him I'm just extremely uncomfortable and have only ridden him very occasionally mostly just at a walk or a few strides of a slow trot. At first I thought it was something I'd get over, but when it only got worse I decided to sell him so that I could move on with my life.
I found the perfect match for him in a good friend of mine at my barn who had been secretly admiring him since I brought him home. She's been riding him for awhile and would really like to buy him, but can't quite get him yet. She is in the process of selling her house and moving somewhere with property to keep her horses on and she probably can't get him until that's all been sorted out...so at the moment I'm sort of waiting around with this horse in limbo. I know I shouldn't complain because what is most important is that he gets the best home and care I can find for him, but I still feel frustrated with the situation because riding and my relationship with my own horse is just a huge part of me and I feel a bit trapped and almost like I have no horse at all. I just want to move on with my life!
So while I've been waiting to sell him I couldn't help but begin looking around at horses available for sale. I found a lot of great horses in my price range, but on April I came across a little mare that seemed to fit perfectly, everything I was looking for right there in that little ad. I've been following her ads and admiring her ever since then. Recently things with my friend seemed to be progressing a little bit more, working on getting a half-lease-to-buy thing in place and stuff like that. We figured that she will probably be able to buy him officially in one-to-three months, so I couldn't help but think maybe now I can start looking at some horses so I can get a feel for them and have enough time to visit a few times. Of course, this mare was the first I'd want to check out.
Well, yesterday we headed down to see her and I tend to be a sap, I was lovestruck, but this mare is even better than I expected. She fits pretty much everything I'm looking for. She has all the right skills and experience and the proper build (and the perfect size for me, 5'7, at a big-enough-but-very-comfortable-15hh) and any problems she has are things I can definitely handle/have handled before. She comes across very straightforward and what-you-see-is-what-you-get. She's a little bit fiery but also gentle and very independant but willing to listen. She's very intelligent and silly and we clicked pretty much instantly. She had no problem hauling my poor out-of-shape-and-practice bum around, either!
The only problem is that there's been someone else eyeing her too. The owner seems pretty unsure about them because they seem to keep going back and forth and who knows if they'll ever actually be able to get her. They're supposed to get back to her again any day now, but I don't know. Personally my mom and I got the impression that the owner really liked me with this mare and might prefer me to the other person, but maybe we're wrong. I'm just not sure if she would turn the other person down if she could buy her before I can. I'm normally definitely not one to snatch up a horse out from under someone else, but the owner was a genuinely kind person who seems to really love her horse and made quite a few comments on how well we worked together and seemed disappointed at the thought that I may not get her, definitely not just a greedy person trying to get rid of her ASAP either..just someone who genuinely needs to get her sold soon but wishes for the best home. I really hope I don't come across as evil, this other person has just been kind of flakey for awhile.
I'm just a bit frustrated because I guess, naively, I hadn't expected that there would be competition, after seeing her online for so long. I was hoping I'd probably have the time to visit her a few times throughout at least this next month, and then begin trying to work something out with the owner, but at the moment if I could I'd pick her up right away without hesitation because we got along so well. I'm trying to figure out if there's anything I can do. I don't yet have a job (I still live with my parents and they support my horses for now until I get one) and while I'm just about to start looking (this upcoming week the search begins) I can't help but worry that I might not get one in time and this dream horse will be gone...and my parents will probably help me once I have one because they'll know I can afford to support her and eventually pay them back for anything out of their pockets, but they're just concerned it might be awhile.
I know it's silly to care so much but it would be very difficult to find another horse in my price range with the same skills, experience, and good personality that this horse has, that I would feel so comfortable with right off the bat....especially for the price she's at. So we're trying to see if we can work something out with our friend or with the owner or something, but I don't know. After having so much confidence crushed by the situation with my current horse I just really want to move on and enjoy riding again...if I don't get back to that soon I might start needing "real" therapy! And I only say that half-jokingly!
Well this is a picture of me on her yesterday if you want to see what a nice pair we make (please no critiques, I've been out of actually riding for way too long, and that saddle and I weren't really agreeing with each other)
Anyway, if anyone's made it through this, virtual cookies for all!