eugh iv'e had it with all this
oki so basically im sick of my dad and his attitude and everything to do with him. Im trying to worm myself free from the farm and all the trouble there, i feel really bad about it but i see no other option and i cant stand to watch anything else go down the drain.
my dad is the kinda person who's ALWAYS right and he never does anything wrong and its always your fault if something happens. he's not a nice man in general, he has his days where he can be but 9 times outta 10 you dread to say the wrong thing to him. And he has given me alot in the past (i.e the horses).
well anyways, today was the last straw, my mams bf was driving us (me and the other girl who keeps her horse at the farm) back from the lockerbie gala day, my dad had left at bout 11am with his gf and the kids to go camping, he told me that two days ago blaze got out and gave chip a beating and left some horrible cuts, so i went to go check on him today when we got back (never had time in the morning) and oh my got, i was expecting a few cuts and bumps but it looked like he's been impaled on something, his neck has two horrible holes in them, and they're not small either, they smell and they've went septic now, theres no marks on him anywhere else, no bites or bumps either.
what really gets me is that my dad NEVER phoned the vet, NEVER tried to wash it the day it happened, he just left it for two days, i had to cut chips mane off because it was all stuck together with puss and mank, and if i hadnt went down to go check how bad it was he'd most likely still be down there for god knows how long. And he left it up to me to phone the vet (which i couldnt cause i was in tears so my mams bf done it for me) unfortunately they couldnt give us a time as to when they'd come and i had work tonight (i really need the money otherwise i woulda phoned in sick) so i couldnt stay, but my nana said she'd hang around for him.
i feel bad for going behind my dads back and arranging to get my OWN (the horses on the farm are only mine when they suit my dad like when things go wrong, but the truth is, they're all in his name) horse and go somewhere else but i've never felt as down as what i have been when i go to the farm, and im really worried about what will happen to the horses when i do leave. arghh i dunno what to do sometimes i just wish the world would end.