These past few weeks have turned that around. The horse I ride in lessons doesn't click with me anymore. I can't feel him, I can't find his striding an we are failing at the 3' jumps my lesson schools over. I used to excel over those! At home me and Ben have one good ride in like 20. We're out of connection with each other. I'm starting to hate riding. I was trying on tall boots today, riding Ben in them to see if they felt good. He was freaking out and after 30 minutes I broke down crying. Trying to get the boots off because they hurt and I was frustrated.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm supposed to do a 2 Day Event June 5-6 but if I hate riding how can I? I still love Ben I jsut don't know what to do.
Sorry for the novel,