I just start riding again as an adult (i'm 24, I stopped for 10 years). I'm really getting back into it, and my skills are coming back quickly. Things I had difficulty with when I quit, I'm finding easier and I have become super dedicated to improving. I'm currently learning from a horse trainer rather than a riding teacher. I'm learning how to school green broke horses and the horse I lease is very pushy, but slow and calm so perfect for me to learn on!
However... I haven't fallen since I started again (well, I ALMOST fell going over a jump, but only ended up on the horses neck...) I haven't had a horse buck yet (crow-hop.. yes... and spook sideways yes...)
I've developed this HUGE fear of falling or being bolted off with. I often get off my horse to walk past "scary" things. I get really nervous if my horse breaks into a full gallop. Everytime I ride a horse that's a little more nervous, or forward, or one I have seen spook pretty good, I get really scared (which obviously doesn't help calm the horse).
The calm horse I ride, I have no problem correcting because I feel comfortable and I know there's a very very very slim chance that he will full-out buck/rear/bolt.
I feel like a loser, I used to be able to get on almost any horse and now there's a select couple I'd get on. How do I get over this fear? I'm even too scared to canter bareback (although I can do it no prob without stirrups)