Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: The great, white expanse of Maine...ugh!
It sounds to me like you should get together with a trainer, at least on a temporary basis. Consider boarding at a stable with an indoor for a couple of months - that way, you'll get to ride - even if it's dark when you come to the barn, or the weather sucks, and you can banish the confidence issue. I think that's the most important thing for you to overcome.
And now, the men of the Second Armored Division with their famous close-order swanning about.