It definitely is!
But I am unforunately sad to inform that I am no longer going to be working at the barn (had nothing to do with my anxiety/issues with the fields). A "falling out" of sorts with the BO
But good news is I will be barn hunting these last few weeks of school (yeah, I have to go back but it is what it is). I also got a job which starts monday night. Pays $8/hour which is sweet, and just in time because I'll need money for the summer. Especially for college stuff and just because it's summer and I want money haha.
But rest assured I will still be working with my anxiety, even with a new barn. I want to get lessons and especially if I want to ride in college I don't want to look silly, I want to look like I've been riding for 9 years! Plus maybe with some of the money I get from working I was thinking of maybe pursuing some shows in the summer (if the barn has any)!
I think I cried a total of 4 hours today because of the issue. I am exhausted and drained!