Feeling very let down
I posted in a previous thread that I had emailed a farm that was looking for volunteers, to see if I could help them out with anything. What I had been looking for was some place where I could help out with barn chores and things and then maybe, after awhile, get to ride.
I had found a place that sounded good and was looking for volunteers. We exchanged emails and it turns out they were actually looking for people to ride. I wasn't sure how well this was going to work out because all of the horses are just off the track, and so they need very good riders. Since I haven't ridden in 4 years I wasn't sure if I would be in good enough shape to handle the horses. I told the owner this when I went out to the farm. She said that was fine and put me up on an older horse to see how I did and just to help me ride again. After, they offered to let me ride another horse, which I didn't do because I was a little tired (I am more out of shape than I realized).
Basically the whole time I was there I was given the impression that I would be getting to ride, which got me very excited. I went out again the other day which I feel bad about because I didn't really do anything while I was there. I didn't intend to not do anything but the one person that was there was busy showing horses to some people so I didn't know what to do. It ended up that, by the time I had done a little bit of riding, I had to leave. I think it maybe seemed like I just came out to ride and nothing else.
Now I've been told I won't be allowed to ride because I'm not skilled enough to ride the horses right now. I don't understand why I'm being told this now, days after I went out there and rode for them. If they thought I wasn't good enough shouldn't they have said something while I was there the first time? I'm worried this is because of how things went the last time I was there, that it seemed like I only came to ride and wasn't going to help out at all.
I know it's fair to say I can't ride but at the same time I feel extremely let down. I got my hopes up for this and I was so excited because they really made it seem like I was going to get to ride and now this. I told them I want to continue to help out with whatever I can, but now I feel like there's just no chance I'll ever get to ride.
Any comments or advice is appreciated. I am just really upset about this and need to talk about it.