So, About a month ago,
I tried out a 11 yr old quarab gelding. He is slightly green, and can be spooky/energetic. His owner passed away, and a friend is looking for a good home for him.
The first time I met him, he put his head in my hands and I just knew that instant that he was THE ONE. (I have tried out plenty of horses in the past, and no spark. Even with my current mare, I never had that instant spark, even though I love her!)
The first day, I just brushed him and took him for a little walk. He was the sweetest boy. He spooked a little bit, but it was perfectly fine.
I went again, and rode him. I was really nervous to ride him, but he was great! They only had a round pen to try him in, and the ground was really hard, so I could only walk/trot, and do little circles. When I was on him, it was like a dream I can't even describe, just perfect.
The owner emailed me later and said they took him on a trail ride, and she feels he is too energetic/bold for me. That he was very aware of his surroundings and hard to handle at first.
Reading that email... my heart just collapsed. I wanted to bawl my eyes out.
He is just my absolute dream horse, and I know that I will have no problem with riding him. I also don't mind working with him alot on the ground before riding.
I think that maybe since I was really nervous when I test rode, that she assumes I am not that great of a rider.
When I ride at home though, I am very confident and calm when a horse bolts or spooks.
I emailed her back and told her how much I loved him, and to keep me updated if he gets any better.
I've never been in a situation where I've found the perfect horse, but can't have him. I can tell you now, it is a terrible feeling.