I'm frustrated after our ride today..I even cried
I was riding, and at the beginning it went pretty well. I wouldn't let him move up from a walk until he was relaxed, and his head was low. But honestly, that felt like the only good part of the ride. I would ask him to trot/canter with a smooch and squeeze of my legs, and then he would slow down, or even worse, stop (I did get him to trot and canter a bit, but not much)! He stops perfectly when I just say "whoa" so I'm wondering if he thinks he is supposed to stop whenever he hears my voice. I was getting really frustrated, so I stopped riding because I didn't want to let out any of my frustration on him. Then I just buried my face on his neck and cried for a minute or two. Thankfully my mom didn't notice. Inside I was thinking, "what did your old owner teach you??" Whenever I squeeze with my legs, or cluck, he almost always slows down/stops. What did his old owner do with him!??! I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere, and that I'm going to fail..And if I do fail, it'll kill me (not literally)
. Failure is my biggest fear. Sorry about the rant, I just had to let it out..