I was supposed to have a lesson today, but I wasn't all that hyped up on going out and riding in below freezing weather.
My trainer called me today to ask me if I wanted to go with her to look at some horses on Sunday, which is pretty cool.
The conversation turned toward the horse that I have been riding, and working on my trot work with. Apparently she's been acting out, and has kind of gotten cranky. I guess she tried to 'attack' a girl while she was trying to bring her in. This strikes me as odd, because when I rode Milly last, I was able to catch her fine, and she even willingly took the bit.
Poor Milly is like 15, has arthritis in her hind end, and they think her ulcers are coming back. Maria, my trainer said that really the only thing that has changed with her, is my working my trot on her. My huge bum is killing this horse!!!!!
So, I'm kind of frustrated, and sad because it seems like each horse that I fall in love with gets sold, or now comes up injured. I mean, I loved Fritz, but he started to spazz out... Junior was a doll, and honestly if the ole man said go ahead and buy him, I would have... But he sold shortly after I really started riding him, and now Milly.
I like Milly because she is dead broke, actually she's a pain in the butt to get going, and keep going. She has taught me to be more aggressive, and has helped me work on my trot. However, I feel really bad, seriously sick inside to know that I could have hurt her.
So now, I'll have to switch horses again, and rebuild my confidence again. I'll be riding Bubba. I've ridden him before; his large gaits and crazy skip intimidate me. He's a good boy though. Seth sat on him for a long time at the last fun show we were at, and Bubba was as calm as can be.
Maybe I should break for awhile and find a large horse that I'm not going to break, or kill? I HAVE TO wait a year before I can buy... And even then it'll be a question of money.
Bleh.. I'm sad. I feel bad for Milly.