We love horse riding and talking about horses, but he doesn't have one, and neither do I. I've always had the dream of becoming a professional show jumper, and how my life is going at the mo, its not going to happen.
My parents split up almost 4 years ago. He lives in England and I live in Spain, I only get to see him in the summer, which is really horrible.
My mum isn't exactly 'made of money', so I will probably NEVER get a horse living with her. She has a boyfriend and a baby, my riding has no interest in her.
I HATE living here. I would get a job and buy a horse myself if I could but I can't cause Im 13 and people don't hire people at my age, which sucks.
My dad and I have occasionally discussed sharing a horse and I would see it in the summer, but my mum doesn't want me to move back, and I know exactly why, for obvious reasons.
But I feel like Ill never reach my dream if I only ride once a week for an hour and living with a person who has no interest in horses and doesn't make me feel very confident.
I've tried talking to her but she want even discuss it. She says my dad is useless and Ill have a crap life there. But I wont, I know what its like living with my dad and he's more interested in me than my mum.
I have tried saving for a horse, by b/day and xmas money, but when my mum can't afford my lessons I have to pay for them.
My dad wouldn't send the money over for a horse, but then my wouldn't take me 3+ times a week.
When I have moments like that (every day of the week) I feel selfish. But I am soo unhappy here. I've lost 75% of my friends due to popularity.
I just wonna be happy, I need advice on convincing my mum to let me go and how to make her understand.
This is probably the wrong topic (again) but I really need help right now :(
Thanks for reading x