OK, I'm probably being ridiculous again, but I am going on vacation and I feel absolutely terrible. My friend really wanted me to go to Florida with her on the March Break. To be honest, I really didn't want to go. The last time I went on vacation with her family, I felt awkward and uncomfortable because they're so unlike my own, and I was also really looking forwards to riding and working with my horses over the Break. My mom has urged me to go, she thinks I'll have a really good time and she told me she'll give me money to go.
But I felt like I've been backed into a corner with this. I told my friend that I can't ask my parents to give me MORE money after everything, and then she replied: "What makes you think you'll have to pay for everything?" (Her dad's makes REALLY good money, and isn't shy about spending it.) Now, I could have told her: "My mom isn't comfortable having you guys pay for everything," but it felt to me like the choices my friend was giving me were: 1) Come to Florida, or 2) I know you don't want to go and don't like me. So I told her I'd go, and I'm trying not to think about it too much until it gets closer, but I am really worrying, like I worry about everything.
Number one, my parents already spend SO much money on me, and I feel awful taking more from them. My mom told me she'd pay for me to go, but my dad has already made me feel sufficiently more guilty than I already did/do, and I'm beginning to regret it. I intend on spending as little as possible and returning everything I don't spend, but..that's hardly consolation.
Number two, is my horses. Middle of March...just about the time for the snow to be breaking up and it to rain every day, especially with the mild winter we've been having so far. So there will be mud, wet, mud, and more mud. Oh, and don't forget the manure that's been frozen all winter starting to melt. I am very concerned about thrush or mud fever or some other moisture-induced infection getting to the horses as I won't be there to clean and take care of them for a week and a half.
Last fall, my pony got into the grain bin and had colic and laminitis (thank god she didn't founder), and at the time she seemed thisclose to dying. Now, even though it was grain-induced, from now on, I am going to be really wary of her getting any sort of rich food at all. Over the winter she's been fine, because they've only had hay to eat, but the closer it gets to spring and the first really green, rich grass comes in, the more I worry. I don't really suppose that if it's muddy and rainy with the snow just breaking up there will be too much rich grass, but any at all is a source of concern for me. We bought her a grazing muzzle, but I don't trust anyone else to properly take care of her. I can't trust for 100% that my dad will put it on her every day (if there is grass to eat), and though I can say with reasonable certainty he'll call the vet if something does happen to her, I honestly never know with dad. But maybe I'm just being paranoid and pessimistic (like always).
Do you think it's likely the horses will get thrush, or mud fever, or anything of that nature if I'm not there for a week and a half? Do you think it's likely my pony will get laminitis again while I'm away? What are the chances that anything at all will happen when I'm not there caring for and exercising and..just being there?
If I didn't have horses, I think I truly would like to go. But seeing that I do, they take priority over everything. I want to have a good time, I want to make the best of it, but I just can't stop worrying