Great lesson because I finally let go of the self-consciousness!
I rarely share a "yay for me" sort of story on here, but I had such a great lesson last night I thought I would share with other people who would understand.
I have been doing a lot of canter work with Isabel on my own lately, and had a couple of lungeline lessons where we cantered with my instructor. However, I've been really self-conscious about my transitions and my position, so I've been hesitant to pick up the canter on my own during lessons. The self-consciousness was just so overwhelming, I didn't want anyone watching us until I felt like the transition was good, I wasn't balancing on her mouth, we were picking up the correct lead, etc. This has been holding me back for the past month or so.
For some reason, last night when my instructor asked if I wanted to do some canter work without the lunge, for whatever reason, I just took a deep breath and said, "I'll try." On our first try, we had a great transition, picked up the left lead correctly right away, and maintained good rhythm for a couple of laps around the arena. Going to the right, we had a much harder time with the transition, and ended up on the wrong lead a couple of times, so it certainly wasn't perfect, but the moral of the story was that it was good enough for our first "public display" of what we've been working on, and it's given me so much confidence to just try something even when it might not be perfect. That is, after all, the point of lessons!
Anyway, thanks for reading. I am sharing this partly for me, but also partly because when I read other people's stories on here, I sometimes get the sense that they are held back by this same sort of self-imposed pressure for perfection that I feel, and I just wanted to share that it's ok to take a risk to help position yourself to move forward in your and your horse's development.
Hope everyone has a great weekend with great rides ahead!